I Think I've Figured It Out!!!

I did it. After YEAR AND YEARS of trying to figure out what the hell I want to do with my life I believe I am on to something with this idea. Every week I think I should do something else with my life, but this idea has stuck to me for a while now. I have always fiddled with idea of being a nurse but at the same time I knew I wanted to work with children. I discovered this past summer that children are so innocent and un-jaded about life which is why I had decided I wanted to have a child’s influence in my everyday life. Which explains why I’m doing what I’m doing with my life right now. So how do I put the two ideas together?? I could be a pediatric nurse and work in a doctor’s office, taking blood pressures and heights and weights every day, but there’s no way I wouldn’t get bored after about 2 days. I need more variety in my life than that. So I was thinking about all the different things I could do with the two interests, and I decided that I think I want to work with children with cancer. I feel this could be very difficult, emotionally. On top of the fact that this means 2-3 more years of school. I can deal with the school though because this is something that I will truly enjoy. Bbut how will I know if I can handle it emotionally? …well I’ve decided to volunteer at a local children’s hospital and try to get involved as much as I can to see if having to see children in such a sad environment is something I can handle. I feel that in such a sad environment, someone like myself, who is cheery and happy 98% of the time, would be good in an environment like this. Maybe that is because these children could use someone to put a smile on their face, to change up the depressing environment they are constantly in. I will keep you all updated on that goes!

So on a more random note, the holiday Starbucks peppermint mocha latte is effing AMAZING!! It is one of the only things I drink from Starbucks, but I think it is fabulous. Any who…….

My sister has XM radio so every now and then we listen to channel 4. For those of you that have XM, you know this is the 40’s station. I’ve come to like some of the 40’s music. Particularly the music that has no singing. I just like the instrumental and no vocals, which is odd because I love to sing along (even though I can’t sing for anything). Every song I hear reminds me of something that is absolutely obscure and is not related to the 40’s at all what so ever. Except every now and then a song comes on that reminds me of the movie “The Notebook”. When I first watched that movie I realized that I would have loved to be alive during that time period. I felt like there was just so much freedom and much less corruption. So when I hear some random 40’s songs I always wish I were alive then and sometimes I let my mind wonder and think about the kind of person I would be in that time period. As I sit here listening to the Beetles, I think about how I also wish I were alive in the 70’s and 80’s and well I guess I was alive in the later part of the 80’s but I couldn’t really appreciate it because I was so wee little. I guess I should say I wish I were 20-something in the 70’s or 80’s. I’d truly take either decade. I feel like those times were pretty awesome to be young in and be able to appreciate it. I’m sure that when I’m older I will think the time that I live in right now was pretty awesome to be a part of, but its easy to take advantage of right now while I’m living in it.

Well I’m off to help my sister made a phenoooooooooooooomenal dessert.

*ALWAYS BELIEVE*